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seven/nine lives

Here's a toast to the living on the blonde side. Documenting the mild narcissism and nighttime wisdom of a little wise guy living on nine lives. Selected essays and fiction. 

Timea is a fiction writer, critic, and social researcher. She completed her doctorate in Social Policy at the University of Oxford in 2021. She currently resides in Belgrade, Serbia.

The English Bulldog

The English Bulldog

1.0

Didn't everybody warn me that loving you would be dangerous? Didn't they say you're a bulldog without a muzzle? I told them all, listen, I like my boys the way I like my pasta: with some bite.

2.0

A lot of people ask me why I left my last boyfriend. My beautiful, square-jawed, intelligent, live-in boyfriend. It took me a year to find a good answer to that question. Do you know that I finally have it? And, hell, maybe you won't like it, but at least it's the god honest truth. 

1.0

But you — you came in like the love of my life. Swept up the whole room like a storm moving through oceans. We fight every week. (Sometimes every day?) And still I am drawn to you like a rat to the plague: loving you is the smartest, stupidest thing I have ever done.  

2.0

One morning I woke up and thought "is this it?" It wasn't: girls like me are destined for bigger, dirtier, grittier things. I ended the lease, packed up my shit, and the day we moved out was the last time I saw him. And I'll probably never see him again. And, Lord, I can live with that.

1.0

So I read my palms and trace our future: it's full of fire and blood and brimstone and the kind of sorcery that gets poets going. I thought I'd felt this before but you — yeah, you — you fill me with the desire to repeat: ourselves, our lives, our genes. You make me want to pass this feeling on. Follow my patterns: life always begins and ends with you.

An excerpt from the fictional short stories, Conversations About Paradise.

The Butcher

The Butcher

The Alchemist

The Alchemist